Heart Attack Scare
A few hours ago when I was window shopping in the mall (aka: my walking exercise), I suddenly felt a nerve pinch kind of pain from deep in my upper inner left arm, which also immediatedly shot to my heart. The pinch pain level was a 3 on a scale of 10 and it was intermitten at about every 5-6 seconds. After each intermitten pain shot to my heart, I also felt a jump ( a noticable off beat) in my heart. I at first just put up with it, but after such pinch pain continued for about an hour, I went into panic mode. It's because I suddenly remembered how I read about the symptoms of a heart attack for women were unlike the classical ones for men and that pain on the left arm that raidated to the chest can be a symptom of a heart attack for women. I felt so panicky, I started to feel dizzy, and shortness of breath and I felt like I was going to pass out in the mall. The more panic I became, the more I felt the symptoms related to a heart attack, and then the more panic I became. It was like a viscous cycle. I can't really explain the intensity of my fear at that moment. I just wasn't able to control the anxiety. At that moment, I felt as if I was all alone, physcally suffering in a very dark and dead silent place and I felt incredibly scared and sad at the same time, even though the mall was glittering with cheerful Christamas decorations and bustling with holidays shoppers.
Of course now that I am typing this post, that means I didn't actually have a heart attack and I didn't collapse in the mall. I ran out of the mall and into my car in fear and drove home, because at the time I was thinking, if I were to have a heart attack, I would rather die at home because even though my husband is chronically ill himself, he can at least call 911 for me, and I wouldn't be just someone who collapsed in a mall where nobody knew who I was or who to contact, leaving my husband at home cluelessly waiting for my return. I know that was a very faulty logic of mine. But that was the only thing I could think about. After I arrived home, I told my husband about my symptoms and fear, he hugged me and told me to eat something from the fridge and take a couple aspirin. So here I am feeling normal again and there is no more shooting pain to my heart. I just survived a panic attack, and may be an acid reflux?
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